I'm Doing It Afraid. But I'm Gonna Do It.

It Takes Everything. It takes all the courage in the world you have living inside of you. It takes all the things you have seen, the scars you have earned, the feelings you have danced with and held onto even when it hurt.

It takes all the sleepless nights, the tears, the victories, and both the crazy and hopeful thoughts.

It takes prayer, dreaming, and chasing your destiny. It takes counting your blessings and blocking the negative things out of life.

It takes forgiveness, compassion, resentment, anger, and pain to truly know Grace and experience it.

It takes falling and falling and falling to know that even your lowest and wounded blows from life can’t take you out unless the One who gave it to you decides to.

It takes trauma, meditation, self-medication and self-love. It takes your tireless efforts and repeated failures.

It takes loving unconditionally and forgetting how to love and choosing to love and knowing what love IS.

It takes despising the person in the mirror, sometimes shattering that glass and sometimes facing it long enough to see that You Are Worthy. Then one day, something on the Inside just wakes up inside of you and you realize these are all contributions towards your purpose. It takes doing it afraid. But doing it. That's Waking Up...On the Inside.